This is how it works
It feels a little worse
Than when we drove our hearse
Right through that screaming crowd
While laughing up a storm
Until we were just bone
Until it got so warm
That none of us could sleep
And all the styrofoam
Began to melt away
We tried to find some worms
To aid in the decay
But none of them were home
Inside their catacomb
A million ancient bees
Began to sting our knees
While we were on our knees
Praying that disease
Would leave the ones we love
And never come again

On the radio
We heard November Rain
That solo's really long
But it's a pretty song
We listened to it twice
'Cause the DJ was asleep

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

And on the radio
You hear November Rain
That solo's awful long
But it's a good refrain
You listen to it twice
'Cause the DJ is asleep
On the radio
(oh oh oh)
On the radio
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio

i hear in my mind

all these voices

i hear in my mind

all these words

i hear in my mind

all this music

and it breaks my heart

We don't need it, we have each other... realise this please!

It's in all our hands...

"I wonder if I've been changed in the night?

Let me think.

Was I the same when I got up this morning?

I almost think I can remember feeling a little different.

But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?"

Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll...

bestest.

you're there for me.

you're smile lights up a room.

you're the most courageous, stunning, intelligent, inspirational, and best person I know.

you're my best friend.

I love you :)

4 years.

it's been 4 years Papa,

but you're still in my heart.

I miss you and love you.

Until we meet again.

xoxoxoxox

...

why do bad things happen to good people?

why are beautiful children born with horrific diseases?

only the good die young.

thinking of my favourite during these tough times.

i love you.

to my family

I am so lucky to be surrounded by such beautiful, lovely, kind, respectful and talented people.

I love that so many of them are actively pursuing their dreams and succeeding!

I seriously feel like a proud parent; whether they got into the course they aimed for (whether it be biomed or drama), whether they've moved to Perth to do what they love, are in a kick ass band, just got cast in a soapie, are trying something completely new or exciting... like cheerleading or working full time, or they are simply trying their very best in school.

I'm proud.

These people that surround me are my day to day inspiration and I really hope they all know just how much I look up to them.

Seriously guys,

I love you all.

we're on the same page

the three musketeers were on the same page, they understood each other, they were there for each other, they trusted each other.

So do we.

(L)

incredible

"I challenge you all to conquer anything that comes your way. Like myself, be motivated by the prospect of doing better, only then can you hope to achieve your fullest potential. It's all about hard work, willpower, determination and the support and encouragement of those around you. Strive to be the best that you can be and never underestimate yourself. And, of course, just don't forget to have a little fun along the way."

these are the words of my incredible best friend.

wow, you truly are something else fav.

I love you xxox

hmm

your eyes.

they're on my mind.

my pessimistic father.

"if I died and came back to you and told you there was life after death would you gain faith and become religious?"

"I don't know... I guess?"

"Of course you would, I know if dad came back and told me there was something to look forward too, I'd believe in God in a second... but he isn't coming back, so I don't."

life lessons courtesy of Shakespeare.

"tis not her glass, but you, that flatters her;

and out of you she sees herself more proper

Than any of her lineaments can show her."

ohh Billy Shakespeare you've hit the jackpot once again.

what an insightful man.

goo goo

"and I don't want the world to see me,

coz I don't think that they'd understand,

when every thing's made to be broken,

I just want you to know who I am..."

will you be my valentine?

if someone wants to give me flowers I want them to do it because they genuinely WANT to give me flowers... not because they feel obligated to due to a stupid holiday.

Dear Valentines Day,

I think you are a crock of shit,

love Rachel.

silence.

take a moment

this glorious piece of architecture is called Patong Beach Hotel. AKA where me, doctor and disney will live for 10 days.

LOOK AT IT!!!!!!

thailand.

THAILAND FUCK THAILAND FUCK CALLING ON A BLACK, DOCTOR AND JUNO FUCK!!!

Guys, it's actually happening thailand is happening. We have flights, thank you thai airlines, we have accommodation, thank you Patong Beach Hotel, WE EVEN HAVE A LITTLE MAN TO PICK US UP FROM THE AIRPORT WITH A LITTLE SIGN WITH OUR NAMES ON IT TO TAKE US TO THE HOTEL IN A PRIVATE CAR!!! I am not even joking.

This is really happening.

July 3rd - July 15th 2010, aka the time of my life...

Meanwhile, I have seriously been too high on life to blog in the last month. My life is fantastic. I have fantastic friends, family and work. I love life. I have worked out the balance, I can work, play, socialise and go to Thailand.

Uni enrolments tomorrow, I'm a tad nervy but also RIDONKULOUSLY excited :)

I have decided some things;

- people need to play trivia more often, it's great fun and always surprising when you discover random facts... kinda like the 'liddle facts' in the lid of juices. I enjoy that.

- girlie sleepovers are amazing, especially with the girls I was with tonight; board games, thai food and icecream cake were all on the agenda.

- people need to decide what they want before asking someone to do something, rather than leading them along a path of confusion and ultimately, hurt.

- people need to only go out of their way to offer their assistance if they really mean it. Not just to get a reaction/gossip/self-satisfaction etc.

that's all I got at the moment.

Basically life is good.

160 days til thailand.

'luck is when preparation meets opportunity'