to my family

I am so lucky to be surrounded by such beautiful, lovely, kind, respectful and talented people.

I love that so many of them are actively pursuing their dreams and succeeding!

I seriously feel like a proud parent; whether they got into the course they aimed for (whether it be biomed or drama), whether they've moved to Perth to do what they love, are in a kick ass band, just got cast in a soapie, are trying something completely new or exciting... like cheerleading or working full time, or they are simply trying their very best in school.

I'm proud.

These people that surround me are my day to day inspiration and I really hope they all know just how much I look up to them.

Seriously guys,

I love you all.

we're on the same page

the three musketeers were on the same page, they understood each other, they were there for each other, they trusted each other.

So do we.

(L)

hmm

your eyes.

they're on my mind.

my pessimistic father.

"if I died and came back to you and told you there was life after death would you gain faith and become religious?"

"I don't know... I guess?"

"Of course you would, I know if dad came back and told me there was something to look forward too, I'd believe in God in a second... but he isn't coming back, so I don't."

life lessons courtesy of Shakespeare.

"tis not her glass, but you, that flatters her;

and out of you she sees herself more proper

Than any of her lineaments can show her."

ohh Billy Shakespeare you've hit the jackpot once again.

what an insightful man.

will you be my valentine?

if someone wants to give me flowers I want them to do it because they genuinely WANT to give me flowers... not because they feel obligated to due to a stupid holiday.

Dear Valentines Day,

I think you are a crock of shit,

love Rachel.

thailand.

THAILAND FUCK THAILAND FUCK CALLING ON A BLACK, DOCTOR AND JUNO FUCK!!!

Guys, it's actually happening thailand is happening. We have flights, thank you thai airlines, we have accommodation, thank you Patong Beach Hotel, WE EVEN HAVE A LITTLE MAN TO PICK US UP FROM THE AIRPORT WITH A LITTLE SIGN WITH OUR NAMES ON IT TO TAKE US TO THE HOTEL IN A PRIVATE CAR!!! I am not even joking.

This is really happening.

July 3rd - July 15th 2010, aka the time of my life...

Meanwhile, I have seriously been too high on life to blog in the last month. My life is fantastic. I have fantastic friends, family and work. I love life. I have worked out the balance, I can work, play, socialise and go to Thailand.

Uni enrolments tomorrow, I'm a tad nervy but also RIDONKULOUSLY excited :)

I have decided some things;

- people need to play trivia more often, it's great fun and always surprising when you discover random facts... kinda like the 'liddle facts' in the lid of juices. I enjoy that.

- girlie sleepovers are amazing, especially with the girls I was with tonight; board games, thai food and icecream cake were all on the agenda.

- people need to decide what they want before asking someone to do something, rather than leading them along a path of confusion and ultimately, hurt.

- people need to only go out of their way to offer their assistance if they really mean it. Not just to get a reaction/gossip/self-satisfaction etc.

that's all I got at the moment.

Basically life is good.

160 days til thailand.

'luck is when preparation meets opportunity'

life is good.

Reasons why life is shibby as can be;

-No more exams.

-Shows.

-18th was rockin'

-my friends are fabbbb

-it's basically summer

-no more school.

this is it kids, LIFE BEGINS NOW!!

insomnia.

why am I still awake? Yes, it's only 11.26pm, but I went to 'bed' an hour ago!

cannot get something off my mind.

need to talk to one person in particular, yet it's too late to call them.

hm. If only they could read my mind. Would be easier I feel.

I actually miss YABC. Haven't been for... 2 weeks. Didn't go the week before last because I really didn't enjoy the previous week, had a relaxing friday night, something I haven't had for a very long time enjoyed and now am longing to go back. I feel that worked well.

Missing my YABC friends more than anything. Those people really do keep me sane. Mostly :)

haha

anywho, I'm done here.

procrastination.

let's be honest.

I'm procrastinating.

I really should be studying, but instead I felt the need to create a blog.

Why make a blog during exams?

Well, A. I feel completely and utterly detached from myself and the world at the moment... therefore writing a blog gives me some where to vent? Maybe... I don't know.

B. a few of my friends have blogs, I found them intriguing, loved their honesty and bluntness. Overall, thought it was a nice idea... I guess you could say I copied... ah well :)

Mum just asked me what I was doing... my response "nothing of value", she just kept walking past, weird. I expected a "shouldn't you be studying?" She'd be right, I should be.

Exams and studying are a bitch. I want to do well, I do. And I have been studying hard, probably not as effectively as I should have, but hard nonetheless. I simply cannot comprehend how I will feel in two weeks and one day, the words that come to mind are FRIGGEN AWESOME! I will be free. AND 18...

I'm 18 in two days!! TWO!!! But I have an exam on my birthday. Thanks VCAA, no really, Thank you! :-|

I'm not gonna lie, I'm completely and utterly overwhelmed at the moment.

Theatre exam on Wednesday, I really want to do well, but as my teacher keeps saying "I need to be more specific" If I screw up this exam I can say goodbye to a good study score.

Methods on Friday and the next Monday. Let's not talk about that.

Music the following Wednesday. Melodic dictation go jump!

Then finally the Tuesday after that Italian, sono molto terribile a italiano, specialmente l'ascoltando.

I cannot believe this, I just spent this whole post talking about school and exams.

VCE is actually consuming my life. More so, draining my life.

However, it's almost over.

ME: